So I don't know what happened this week. It all started and throughout the course of the week was strengthened. But I really have experienced, as Alma poses as a question in Alma chapter 5, a mighty change of heart.
But I feel like I have come out of this really long tunnel. This really long hard time. My heart has changed! It's not that I was bad before, it's just that I am better now! I have been thinking about my investigators more, thinking about the members here more, not just more, but they are who I think about! I am here, my heart is here, and it is the most beautiful feeling I could ask for.
Church was good. Yesterday there was a point where I was sitting on the ground in the Foyer before sacrament started, looking at a boy in our ward's Star Wars trading cards with him, and a girl in the ward came up, sat next to me, put her head on my shoulder, and I just thought about how much I love them. I really love this ward. We unfortunately had no investigators there but hopefully next week.